tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-145704022024-03-08T04:27:53.691-08:00The Escape of the Fairy PrincessI never can escape from my own realities....trapped within my own doing....Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-41604151325300018182007-04-28T09:50:00.000-07:002007-04-28T09:51:40.426-07:00ForgottenThe knife is against my wrist.<br />Would it hurt as it slices through the skin?<br />Would blood spurt out in gushes?<br />Would you even care?<br />I am just a toy to you.<br />Something to replace when gone.<br />Thrown in the trash.<br />Forgotten...Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1158513045761723752006-09-17T10:10:00.000-07:002006-09-17T10:10:45.773-07:00As alwaysIt is time to let go <br />Emotions are still raw <br />As always you are unable to sense it<br />I am hurting inside <br />As always you are oblivious of it<br />A knife penetrating deep in the heart<br />This is how it feels to be me<br /><br />It is time to let go<br />Blame placed on me<br />As always you never understand<br />Tear stained cheeks<br />As always you do not see<br />This slashed heart cannot take anymore<br />This is how it feels to be me<br /><br />It is time to let go<br />Not allowed to say anything more<br />As always others come before me<br />Emotions toyed around like a yoyo<br />As always you do not realise<br />The pain and hurt you caused all these years<br />This is how it feels to be meFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1141034539832603712006-02-27T02:01:00.000-08:002006-02-27T02:02:19.846-08:00Days Gone ByIncoherent thoughts running through my mind<br />Rationality evades me when I need it most<br />Lucidity come back to me and tell me this is wrong<br />So what they say is true, what you don't seek you will find?<br />I am not looking for anything, just lost<br />In my own little world, singing my own song<br />Of love, peace and happiness of days gone by.<br />And then all of a sudden, I start to cry<br />Those days are gone, they will not return<br />Is that why it feels as though everything burns?<br />Eternal flame of love, is there even such a thing?<br />My love is pure like fire, it burns through my senses<br />All I have now are my thoughts of you,<br />Running through this confused mind<br />Despite thinking things through,<br />I guess I still am in love with youFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1133226421998180702005-11-28T17:05:00.000-08:002005-11-28T17:07:02.006-08:00Where do you find your beauty? it just gets more depressing by the day<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/G/GH/GHO/GhostLikeCharm/1132228068_encedcries.jpg" border="0" alt="HASH(0x8593674)" /><br /><b>Your beauty lies in your despair.</b><br /><i>The sad girl walks by herself on a rainy day.<br />How graceful she moves. Her pain has made her<br />beautiful.</i> Others say to themselves as you<br />walk by. How can they not see that you are<br />beautiful? Because you are.<p><b>Your motive:</b><br />To feel happiness just once before you die.<p><b>Your quote:</b><br /><i>Stranger, hold me for a while.</i><p><b>Your colors:</b><br />Deep red and black.<p><b>Your song:</b><br />Fields of Innocence by Evanescence<br />"Where has my heart gone? I want to go back<br />to beliving in everything."<p>Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1133196869198092912005-11-28T08:52:00.000-08:002005-11-28T08:54:29.200-08:00What emotion dominates your life?<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/F/FL/FLO/Flowerios/1131467489_depression.jpg" border="0" alt="HASH(0x8b84a94)" /><br />Why so sad? Depression is constantly what you feel.<br />You feel like no one wants to be around you and<br />that you can't do anything right.<br /><br /><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Flowerios/quizzes/What%20emotion%20dominates%20your%20life%3F%20Awesome%20anime%20pictures!/"></a>Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1133196551256931572005-11-28T08:48:00.000-08:002005-11-28T08:49:41.566-08:00True Emotions?<img alt="HASH(0x8d1f8f8)" src="http://images.quizilla.com/R/RE/RED/Redneck2o1o/1132458196_lonlinesss.jpg" border="0" /><br /><b>Your true emotion:<b><br />sadness. You are<br />depressed and lonely, you show happiness on the<br />outside; but are truly crying for help inside. <p><b>Your quote:<b><br />A heart can be broken once; and can be fixed, but<br />that scar of pain and betrayel will always<br />remain. <p><b>Your song:<b><br />"Untitled" -Simple Plan <p><b>Your elemental sign:<b><br />fire <p><b>Your lucky days:<b><br />June 13th and February 21st. <p><b>Your needs:<b><br />Love and happiness. <p><br /><br /> </p><br /></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b><b><b><b><b><b><b><b><b><b><b><b><b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b></b>Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1128385045089284832005-10-03T17:00:00.000-07:002005-10-03T18:20:00.446-07:00WishesEvery night, I look upon the darkened sky<br />Without fail, every single night I make a single wish<br />That single star, that I see that night<br />Upon the first star, I ask that for you to be with me<br />Every day, without a doubt I'd get a message from you<br />Telling me, just how things are<br />Reassuring me, that we'll be together soon<br />Saying that, you love me<br />Easing the longing, that you make me feel<br />Every night, so the same procedure goes<br />To be with you, I make my wishFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1128299297215618232005-10-02T17:10:00.000-07:002005-10-02T17:28:17.216-07:00Quiet thingsThe quiet things that people do not know<br />Of herself, that she does not understand well<br />Beneath the who-the-heck cares exterior<br />Which is simply just an empty shell<br />Lies a sensitive and fragile little girl<br />Who does not really feel she is inferior<br />Just not understood and not loved<br />Nobody really knows her that well<br />She keeps her fears and emotions inside<br />Who will unfurl the layers beneath?<br />No one will, like layers of an onion<br />There are too many facets to me<br />She is not just a student<br />She is not just a girl<br />She is a person, who is lost in this world<br />She is in love, yet she is afraid<br />She is unhappy, yet she hides it<br />She is morose, yet she wants to stop feeling as such<br />Who will help her find her way out of this maze of misery?<br />Who will save her from her own path of self-destruction?<br />No one will, for she hides her emotions and fears deep inside<br />One day the dam will break, and the tears will flow<br />Let her cry freely, and just let her emotions goFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1127901920467952792005-09-28T03:05:00.000-07:002005-09-28T17:40:11.010-07:00The FoolThe girl sits by the window<br />Watching as the world go by<br />Time seems to be moving so slow<br />She wished that it’ll just fly<br />She fell in love with an old friend<br />She thought that it would be her joy<br />Instead she’s filled with hurt and pain<br />And it’s all because of the feelings she has for the boy<br />The boy made her laugh when she cried<br />The boy made her smile when she frowned<br />The boy made her feel safe and loved<br />The boy did all that when she felt her world was crumbling around her<br />He evoked emotions that made her feel as though as she’s flying high above<br />The high she felt was temporal when she discovered that he had another love<br />That other love felt as deeply for him as she herself did<br />What then do you call the girl trapped within this web?<br />She’s spiraling into darkness for all the feelings she felt<br />She cares for the other love but she can’t help but still be in love with the boy<br />She understands why the other love fell for the boy<br />She knows the other love needs the boy<br />She feels like a rag doll, her emotions are tossing around<br />She knows he loves her and means no harm<br />She knows that he loves her just as much as she loves him<br />So the girl conflicted by her emotions, decides to take her life<br />A bottle of sleeping pills to aid in her escape<br />Unfortunately, she just ends up in hospital attached to some device<br />So what does one call this girl?<br />A fool in love or just someone too dumb to face the reality that she’ll never have him<br />God gave her another chance to live her life now<br />How she wished time flew so fast so she did not have to think what she has to do<br />Time heals all wounds that is what people say<br />But who are they?<br />The girl is just a fool come what may, she will still love the boy till the end of her days.Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1127901834969374142005-09-28T03:03:00.000-07:002005-10-03T18:26:32.270-07:00ConflictMy emotions are conflicting with my beliefs<br />My passion is conflicting with my religion<br />Conflicted emotions derived from the turmoil within me<br />Just makes me wish that I was buried 7 feet deep in the ground<br />Let the worms burry into my lifeless body<br />Let the scorpions have their fill of me<br />Let the snakes slither around me<br />Let my body enrich the soil<br />Let the beauty of nature grow above my grave<br />Nothing will stop me from feeling these emotions<br />They seem to be engraved into my damaged heart<br />Pain, deep at the bottom of my heart<br />Aches, especially whenever it realizes the conflict that it’ll faces<br />A situation that I cannot escape<br />A grave has been dug<br />This empty shell longs to be in it<br />To not feel any more pain<br />To not feel any more sorrow<br />To feel nothing at all….<br />To not feel any more pain<br />To not feel any more sorrow<br />To feel nothing at all….Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1127901752150498592005-09-28T03:01:00.000-07:002005-09-28T16:52:44.970-07:00StrawsSometimes I wonder what I am doing with my life<br />I am not happy nor am I satisfied with what I have achieved<br />I’ve gone through so much strife<br />Just to get to what I had set out to achieve<br />I’m almost there… but that is just a piece of paper<br />And a wealth of knowledge and information<br />But I do not feel that erratic beat of my heart<br />That tells me that I am happy<br />The joyous feeling that I had as I chased after tadpoles in the muck<br />The anticipatory emotions that I had as I climbed an Acacia tree<br />The exhilaration of seeing the view atop the tree<br />None…none of those feelings are felt now<br />Instead I am constantly filled with the sense of sorrow<br />As though I am grappling to thin straws<br />That the love I found was not mine to have and to hold<br />Doomed to be left in solitude as the years take its tollFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121625653820971132005-07-09T11:39:00.000-07:002005-07-17T12:03:45.330-07:00Tango TemptressMy feet constantly in motion,<br />My torso glides with ease,<br />Each movement makes you feel like you've swallowed a potion,<br />Each turn of my head makes you feel unease.<br />For what is this creature that moves with the breeze,<br />Each movement a precise action,<br />Each step an ochestration to tease.<br />The tilt of her head inspires manifestations,<br />Of lingering eyes and smiles that evoke peace.Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121625781353976492005-07-04T11:41:00.000-07:002005-07-17T11:43:24.396-07:00LifeWalking on that winding path through life<br />I encounter obstacles that hinder my journey<br />A steep rockface stands before me<br />Massive, imposing and towering<br />Fingers searching for a crevice to grapple on<br />Feet feeling around for a foothold<br />Hoisting myself up on this treacherous surface<br />Slowly inching closer my way to the top<br />Feeling helpless despite being halfway there<br />Wishing there was someone up there to throw me a rope<br />Giving me a hope to continue the climb<br />Realise that it was a useless expectation<br />For there might not even be a soul in sight<br />Only person I can depend on now is just myself<br />Holding my life in my own handsIf I slip, there is no rope<br />Faith in self, believe that this will soon pass<br />So I continue on, blistered feet, bleeding fingers and scraped knees<br />Setting sun greeted me at the top<br />As the colors of the sky changes bit by bit<br />Another part of the world would be luminated<br />I walk on into the darkness<br />Continuing on my own winding path.Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121625932500398032005-06-01T11:44:00.000-07:002005-07-17T11:45:32.500-07:00Thinking backI recall the times when we conversed daily<br />I reminisce the memories of laughing to dumb things we found funny<br />I recollect the dreams we related to each other<br />I remember the secrets that we shared<br />I worried about you<br />I wondered whether you were fine<br />I wished I knew where you had gone<br />I willed myself to believe you were safe<br />And then suddenly one day<br />A message was received<br />A declaration that you were okay<br />A statement that said that you were afraid of the consequences<br />A line that told me how you felt about me<br />A wave of relief and confusion tinged with sadness<br />A discovery of a painful knowledge<br />A realisation that you will never be mineFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121626010549002982005-02-22T11:45:00.000-08:002005-07-17T11:46:50.550-07:00SolitudeConfusion surrounds me<br />Falling deeper into an abbyss of darkness<br />Grappling with my feelings of self-doubt<br />Pesona that everyone sees masks the reality within<br />Like two sides of a coinI am two different people yet the same<br />Exuding confidence, satisfaction and success<br />Hiding the melancholy, loneliness and fragility<br />Alone with no one to turn to<br />None but a few understanding how I feel<br />Reaching out had been fruitless<br />Silence seems to be the path to take<br />Solitude welcomes meFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121626119168224872004-12-24T11:47:00.000-08:002005-07-17T11:48:39.166-07:00Stormy nights call for thick warm blanketsStanding by the doorway<br />Looking into the room<br />Hoping for the something that would make my day<br />Scanning left and right seeing nothing but gloom<br />Pausing for a while I look through the windows and see the sky<br />Darkened like a collied night whispering imminent storm soon<br />Outside the rain was pouring<br />Inside the room was stifling<br />Moving away from the doorway<br />Coming into the room<br />Searching for warmth within this cavity of gloom<br />Climbing onto the bed I know so well<br />Familiarity enveloping me with the scent of vanilla on the sheets<br />Blankets embrace me warm and comforting<br />Lying there with curled up feet<br />Safe from the outside<br />Here is where I choose to dwellFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121626238836745722004-08-24T11:49:00.000-07:002005-07-17T12:02:18.190-07:00UncertaintyI am unsure of whether what I said to you was right<br />Perhaps I should have waited for a more opportune time to tell you then tonight<br />I am wary of what the future might bring<br />Perhaps the truth is that I do not want to leave you hanging<br />I am uncertain of what lies ahead<br />Perhaps I am just feeling afraid<br />I am hesitant to tell you how I feel<br />Perhaps it is because I know these feelings are real<br />It clouds every decision I make<br />For every question I ponder over<br />For every direction I inch toward<br />What I am certain is that everything is for the better<br />Whatever happens, happen for a reason<br />When one door closess another door opens towards new opportunities<br />All I can do now is just seize the day and face the possibilities that lie aheadFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121626659100869802004-07-10T11:56:00.000-07:002005-07-17T11:57:39.100-07:00Seek Solace Somehow SomewhereI seeked solace in you<br />I fell unwittingly in too deep<br />Into the hole that I had dug<br />When I kept thinking of you in my sleep<br />My friends are telling me that you're a creep<br />However all I could do was shrug<br /><br />I couldn't see what they saw<br />I couldn't notice what they pointed out<br />I couldn't see your faults<br />I told them that you had a kind heart<br />I told them that I had fallen for you right from the start<br /><br />Why didn't I listen to them?<br />Why didn't I opened my eyes wider to see the reality of you?<br />But still all I can see now was the person I fell in love with years ago<br />Are you not the same person?Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121626560588229722004-07-10T11:54:00.000-07:002005-07-17T11:56:00.590-07:00Never EverNever could understand why I feel this way<br />Never could imagine why I could fall this hard<br />Never could explain why you behave the way you do<br />Never could I ever comprehend how you could treat me in this manner<br /><br />Ever have I felt your arms around me<br />Ever have I felt enveloped by yourself<br />Ever have you pulled me so close<br />Ever have you pushed me away<br /><br />A tug of war that I don't want to face no more<br />A never ending hurt that doesn't leave<br />Another crack that my fragile heart can't handle<br />Another stab that makes the body weaker<br />I realise now that we can never be<br />I realise the truth of what has been said<br />I realise that you care for me<br />I realise that you are just a slow reacting poison<br />I realise that the antidote is to not see you anymore<br />Never ever is a promise I make to myselfFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121626454120160962004-07-10T11:52:00.000-07:002005-07-17T11:54:14.120-07:00DreamsWaiting for darkness to envelope me<br />To beckon me into its embrace<br />To fall onto a mattress of marshmallows<br />To lay my head onto the cloudlike pillows<br />And slowly drifting off into a sweet and long slumber<br />Waiting for what dreams may come<br />To frolic amongst the waves<br />To lie on the sands<br />To relax<br />And awakening to the rays of the morning sun<br />Waiting for that dream I had dreamt<br />To feel your kisses<br />To recall the warm embrace<br />To be slapped by the brutal truth<br />And realise you weren't really you<br />Waiting for sleep to come<br />To close my eyes<br />To forget the sadness<br />To ignore the pain<br />And dream sweet dreams as I sleepFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121626356914041352004-07-10T11:51:00.000-07:002005-07-17T11:52:36.913-07:00ProcrastinationProcrastination from actually facing the reality<br />Avoiding the horrifying truth<br />I'm not halfway done yet<br />I am glad that I got the MC<br />Missing classes for a week<br />Not really a smart thing to do<br />What makes it worse is to get the CT-SCAN<br />Wonder what's wrong with this thing called my brain<br />At least it's somewhat working<br />Making miracles with Finance Law<br />My head is still spining<br />An after effect of hitting the floor<br />Together with the bathroom door<br />And everything including the bathroom sink<br />I don't reckon I can think anymore<br />Hopefully I'll get more done by fourFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121626759428544572004-05-07T11:57:00.000-07:002005-07-17T11:59:19.426-07:00Sleep DeprivationI cannot understand why I cannot sleep<br />My day was full<br />My brain worked hard<br />My body is exhausted<br />I am still wide awake<br />I cannot comprehend why I am awake<br />My eyes are not drooping<br />My head is not getting any heavier<br />My brain is just throbbing<br />I am still lucid<br />I cannot fathom why I cannot have a deep sleep<br />My internal clock wakes me up at 7<br />My restlessness in bed<br />My freakish dreams<br />I am deprivedFairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14570402.post-1121626877613100802004-05-06T11:59:00.000-07:002005-07-17T12:01:17.613-07:00Another year oldAnother year<br />Of feeling older than the rest of my kids<br />Compounded by the fact that they are getting younger every year<br />Of supposing to be more matured than the rest<br />Of realising that I shouldn't be partying as much<br />Just wanting to remain status quo, perhaps at 21?<br />I wish!<br /><br />Another birthday<br />Of blown candles<br />Compounded by the 24 candles on the cake<br />Of the fact that I have grown older<br />Of the realisation that I am not necessarily wiser<br />Just wanting to enjoy my uni life, perhaps at a post-grad level?<br />I wish!<br /><br />Another age<br />Of unfulfilled wishes<br />Of broken hearts<br />Of unrequited affections<br />Of escaping the reality of the real world<br />Just enjoying the best years of my life with great friends and great experiences<br />I wish!Fairy-Duhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11869134559703194485noreply@blogger.com0