Thinking back

I recall the times when we conversed daily
I reminisce the memories of laughing to dumb things we found funny
I recollect the dreams we related to each other
I remember the secrets that we shared
I worried about you
I wondered whether you were fine
I wished I knew where you had gone
I willed myself to believe you were safe
And then suddenly one day
A message was received
A declaration that you were okay
A statement that said that you were afraid of the consequences
A line that told me how you felt about me
A wave of relief and confusion tinged with sadness
A discovery of a painful knowledge
A realisation that you will never be mine