Seek Solace Somehow Somewhere

I seeked solace in you
I fell unwittingly in too deep
Into the hole that I had dug
When I kept thinking of you in my sleep
My friends are telling me that you're a creep
However all I could do was shrug

I couldn't see what they saw
I couldn't notice what they pointed out
I couldn't see your faults
I told them that you had a kind heart
I told them that I had fallen for you right from the start

Why didn't I listen to them?
Why didn't I opened my eyes wider to see the reality of you?
But still all I can see now was the person I fell in love with years ago
Are you not the same person?

Never Ever

Never could understand why I feel this way
Never could imagine why I could fall this hard
Never could explain why you behave the way you do
Never could I ever comprehend how you could treat me in this manner

Ever have I felt your arms around me
Ever have I felt enveloped by yourself
Ever have you pulled me so close
Ever have you pushed me away

A tug of war that I don't want to face no more
A never ending hurt that doesn't leave
Another crack that my fragile heart can't handle
Another stab that makes the body weaker
I realise now that we can never be
I realise the truth of what has been said
I realise that you care for me
I realise that you are just a slow reacting poison
I realise that the antidote is to not see you anymore
Never ever is a promise I make to myself

Dreams

Waiting for darkness to envelope me
To beckon me into its embrace
To fall onto a mattress of marshmallows
To lay my head onto the cloudlike pillows
And slowly drifting off into a sweet and long slumber
Waiting for what dreams may come
To frolic amongst the waves
To lie on the sands
To relax
And awakening to the rays of the morning sun
Waiting for that dream I had dreamt
To feel your kisses
To recall the warm embrace
To be slapped by the brutal truth
And realise you weren't really you
Waiting for sleep to come
To close my eyes
To forget the sadness
To ignore the pain
And dream sweet dreams as I sleep

Procrastination

Procrastination from actually facing the reality
Avoiding the horrifying truth
I'm not halfway done yet
I am glad that I got the MC
Missing classes for a week
Not really a smart thing to do
What makes it worse is to get the CT-SCAN
Wonder what's wrong with this thing called my brain
At least it's somewhat working
Making miracles with Finance Law
My head is still spining
An after effect of hitting the floor
Together with the bathroom door
And everything including the bathroom sink
I don't reckon I can think anymore
Hopefully I'll get more done by four